Sharing My Hunger in 2013

Standing at the top of the stairs in San Francisco

Well, here we are on the brink of 2013.

I thought about making resolutions, but I realized that I just…shouldn’t. Why? Because making resolutions is dangerous; I am too goal-driven.

I know–being goal-driven sounds like a good problem to have, at least displayed prominently on my LinkedIn profile; however, goals and resolutions can be negative when placed into the hands of a self-flagellating perfectionist.

Such as myself.

If you go back through my blog, you’ll see many of my relapses with ED and exercise addiction coinciding with “challenges.” 30-Day Bikram challenge, Fruit Stand Wellness (running) challenge, Muscle and Fitness Hers Transformation challenge…etc.

And a resolution, in many ways, is another challenge. It’s another arbitrary start-and-end point with parameters that define “messing up.” It’s an opportunity to punish myself for not achieving, a chance to let ED and associated thinking creep in when I don’t–or can’t–live up to the goals and time frames I’ve set for myself.

So this year, I’m not making resolutions. Instead, I have just one goal:

I will continue to find ways to stay in touch with, learn about, and accept my hunger, and I will help others find their hunger when I can.

That’s it. That’s all I want out of 2013.

2012 has been an amazing year. It’s been one of struggle and pain, to be sure–but I am grateful for every second of it. I have emerged a much stronger, healthier person. I am not perfect and I am not healed, but I’m learning to be okay with good enough and coping with the wounds that haven’t closed and the scars that haven’t faded.

Even better, I’ve figured out how to turn one of my passions into a viable career. I’ve gotten in touch with my diet and exercise, and I’m healthier–mentally and physically for it. I’ve allowed people into my life–incredible people all over the world, old friends and new–who have enriched the last few months, and I know will continue to enrich the year to come.

Thank you all for following me on this crazy journey for the last five months. I’m looking forward to all of the wonderful things the future has in store for us next year.

Stay hungry & have a happy new year,

K.

P.S. I read a great post on Mother Fitness about why we shouldn’t make resolutions. I thought it was worth sharing: Stop Setting Goals

P.P.S. Kelly at Be Anything But Quiet shared a great link from the Huffington Post about surviving the holiday food-and-weight obsession, but I think it’s something that applies all year long.

P.P.P.S. I love that WordPress has put together such a beautiful “year in review” feature. Check out the amazing things that have been happening on the Skinny Genes blog since July!

Here’s an excerpt:

4,329 films were submitted to the 2012 Cannes Film Festival. This blog had 31,000 views in 2012. If each view were a film, this blog would power 7 Film Festivals

Click here to see the complete report.

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8 thoughts on “Sharing My Hunger in 2013

  1. Love having the opportunity to get to know you, sistah! Finding new friends makes me feel that much more “healthy” in life! 🙂 Love the article about “Stop Setting Goals”! I agree…and am heading into the new year with more focused intention for living a healthy and happy life! Cheers to you and seeing you in person again in 2013!

  2. Hey Kaila,
    Thanks for sharing 🙂
    My resolution this year is the same as last year: more time with the people who matter in my life, more fun, and more happiness.
    Wishing you all the best! xo

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  4. All the best for 2013! Keep up the inspiring blogging. I am definitely with you on not setting goals because I suffer the same affliction of perfectionism and using them to punish as opposed to nurture myself. What great advice!

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