Why I’m Angry, or Everybody Has an Eating Disorder

eating-disorder-body-dysmorphic-disorder

In case you were wondering, today is International No Diet Day.  Warning: triggers ahead.  I am so angry. I am so angry, and sick to my stomach. I’m sick and tired of ED. I’m sick and tired of disordered eating … Continue reading

Sex vs. Sexy

Dying to be a bikini competitor. Literally.

So let’s bring this sexuality thing home: If I’m not mistaken (and I’m pretty sure I’m not), part of the reason that fitspo has gained so much traction is the concept that we’re all looking for motivation to help us … Continue reading

The Challenge [GUEST POST]

The Challenge

Guess what, guys? I’m on the front page of Proud2BMe.org! Proud2BMe, part of the National Eating Disorders Association and founded in the Netherlands by the mental health organization Riverduinen, is an incredible resource that promotes positive body image and eating disorder recovery … Continue reading

Becoming ED: The Female Athlete Triad and Amenorrhea

Starving for a fitness model body

There’s a point in your disordered eating when you become your disorder. When, without realizing it, you stop separating your own body from the image of ED in your head. And suddenly: your body starts to comply. You want to … Continue reading

The Disappearing Woman

The disappearing woman, Too thin, anorexic

I know that, at least for me, the idea of sexuality is a huge trigger. My first kiss was preceded by a panic attack in my high school’s “zen garden” and directly followed by a drive home during which I … Continue reading

Sex with ED, or Let Me Be Frank*

Muscular legs in heels

*Just a note for those of you who know my father, no, this has nothing to do with him or the Elektra complex. I’m talking about Eating Disorders, or ED for short, thankyouverymuch.     During my very expensive mistake … Continue reading

And Now For Something Completely Different (Plus My First Guest Post: 0.0)

And now for something completely different: Oh, friends, it just keeps getting better. Stress aside, there’s so much for which to be grateful. To kick off your happy Monday, check out the GUEST POST I wrote for Healthy Weight Week … Continue reading

My Boy…Friend, ED

Playing Rizzo in Grease

I met ED, as you may or may not recall, on July 4, 2001. Just a few days before, a boy in my summer camp had declared that he “liked” me (a very strong proclamation to make at 13) and … Continue reading

Getting Healthy…Period.

Shredded Abs, Low Body Fat, No Period

Since I feel like we all know each other so well by now (said the girl who developed a parasocial relationship with the internet), I want to post about a very exciting first–and ladies and gents, I apologize if any … Continue reading

One Girl’s Trash Is Another Girl’s Trigger

Thinspiration "The Voice that says you can't is a lying slut"

When it comes to the calories in vs. calories out issue, I know that there are no easy fixes. We live in a culture that sees “truths” in absolute terms so long as they’re based on recommendations by the government … Continue reading